A New Year

What a mess 2009 has been! I must say that I am very happy to have it gone!! As I sit here listening to Taylor Swift I can't help but want to spend a few minuets and review 2009. In reality all it does is depresses me! Over the coarse of one year my family has lost three family member due to death, have managed to survive a divorce ( My FIL cheated on my MIL of 38 years with none other then her best friend who just happened to be my FIL ex! What a mess that is still!) a remarriage (did a mention that he didn't tell anyone for two months after they were married and got married only one month after being divorced from my MIL!) Did you catch all that? Hope so because I am not going to rewrite it again. Going on with this year and why it sucked! I had a miss carriage and I think that is all with the crappy stuff (but could that be a blessing?)

Now to try and focus on the good! My DH is still working and going to school and manages to fine to juggle a crazy wife and 3 very demanding kids. I started doing home school with the girls and cant believe that they turned 4 this year. I don't ever recommend having twins by the way. That is if you can help it. But I love them and all there craziness. I dread the day they turn 15 and start fighting over boys!

R.D turned 1 this year and is nothing more then a big spoiled brat!! He is the luckiest little boy to have two big sister doting over him. He is a monster just the same. I keep telling my DH that I am ready to get my tubes tied. Well see how that fight goes.

With all New Years comes resolutions and this year I am setting my own goal to work on. So with no further ado I give you my new years resolution list..
1. Be a better mom with more patients for my kids.
2. Be a better wife to my husband
3. Write on my blog more (even though I don't think anyone reads it)
4.Cook out of one of my many many cookbooks at least once a week! And try to blog about it.
5. Learn something new. (don't know yet on this one but am open to suggestions)
6. Last but on least, Get the rest on my baby weight off!!!

Not so much

Well Im not pregnant. But my two sister inlaws are and both of them have not had a baby in about 9 years!!! crazy. both shocked and they are sisters. My one sister inlaw I love she is the one whos kids I baby sit and the other inlaw is the one I dont like so much. Oh well I am still happy for her.

Pregnant?!?

Could I be? I am starting to wonder. I am so emotional all the time, I have to pee all the time, and I want to eat all the time. Oh and I am like two weeks late. The other day I took a pregnancy test and it said negative but I got the test from the dollar store and I am now starting to wonder if the dollar store is really the best place to get a pregnancy test.

I have my three great kids. Two girls and one boy. Am I really ready to have another one? My little guy in only a year old. For all of you people out there wondering, YES I was on birth control. I was also my birth control with my 4 year olds. I am starting to wonder if I am just one of the 1% it doesn't work for.

Don't get me wrong, I would be so happy to bring another child into his horrible, awful world! Okay but really, I have two cousin who have been both been trying to get pregnant for over two years now and I would just be so heart broken if I was pregnant, once again while I was on birth control and they are having a hard time getting one child into this world let alone four! If in the end I am pregnant I will be happy and we will re-just our lives once again.

Family Relations.. Worth it?

Family relations take a lot of work and I am starting to wonder just how worth it they really are. My Husband has a sister who has never really liked me. She has always talked about me behind my back and whenever I do talk to her, (she is one of those people who are your best friend to your face) she has a way of twisting it and turning it around. She has always talked crap about me to her other sisters (my poor husband has 3 total) and I really don't care because they always as consider the source when she says anything bad, but anyway. The other day I was babysitting one of the other sisters kids and they told me that she didn't like me (we will call the evil sister Kristy) Anyway so the story when like this.....

Nephew: "Aunt Zada, the other day when we were in Kristy's car she told us that she didn't like you."

Me: "What? What did she say?"

Nephew: "We were driving down the road and she said "Raise your hand if you don't like ZADA!" and she raised her hand."

Me: "You have got to be kidding me?"

She did that with a car full of kids. And Kristy is probably in her mid 30s. You would think that would be enough time to grow out of that. Well, later that day when I told my husband about it all he said was "consider the source". It still makes me mad and I wonder to myself just how much I want to work on that family relation. The sad thing is that she herself has kids and this is how she is teaching them to treat people. Anyway, who else out there has a bitchy sister in law?


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First time blogger!

Hi, my name is Zada and I am here to start blogging! So many of my friends have cute blogs that show off happy times with there family's and friends. I thought I would be just like them! OK not really!! I love the happy go lucky blogs don't get me wrong, but what about the truth? But you know, not everything is honky dory all the time and some times life just right out sucks!! I'm not saying that my blog will be all doom and gloom but I do intend on telling it how it is, the good with the bad!